For Monday, November 1, 2010

Matthew 17:19 Then the disciples came to Jesus privately and said, “Why could we not drive it out?”

I am identifying with them.

Failure.

It wraps like a heavy shroud around me – weighting my mind. And I chasten myself — what is wrong with you!?

20 And He said to them, “Because of the littleness of your faith;

I can trust Him to tell me the hard truth, can’t I?

for truly I say to you, if you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘move from here to there,’ and it will move; and nothing will be impossible to you.

Even changing me from a woman who feels like a failure? Who year after year prays for the same thing? Prays for the same change because the change in her does not come?

Yes. Even that — for nothing will be impossible for me IF I believe.

21 [“But this kind does not go out except by prayer and fasting.”]

It was a demon spirit the Disciples could not cast out. I am surmising here then that the Disciples had not done enough praying and fasting to rid themselves of their unbelief and because of that they could not cast out the demon spirit.

Shall I dare accept that I have not the change for which I have prayed because I have not heretofore been willing to do the hard work it will take? The consistent day after day hard work of  praying and fasting from my own unbelief? And what am I not believing? What I am asking for may give me a clue to this particular unbelief.

If any of this is resonating with you, I don’t have the answer for you, just pointing you in the same direction I am going — JESUS.

JESUS, I’m listening. Amen and amen.

Holy hugs, kt

Praying for These

I received a text message from Bev this evening asking that we pray for her daughter Dixie and grand-baby. Dixie is at 32 weeks gestation and has had an adverse reaction to some medication administered to stop premature contractions. Presently a new medication has halted the contractions and Dixie is improving; we want her to continue to improve and be able to give the baby 3 more weeks in the womb.  Please pray for Dixie, the Baby, Bev and all the family.

Until morning, kt

Grand will have another surgery on Monday, November 1, 2010; the family would like for us to pray.  To see fuller details of his update, click here.

Holy hugs, kt

Just a bit ago I received a phone call from a Sister IDOK requesting that we add Milly Langely to our Praying for These Loved Ones.  Milly is seriously ill, so much so she is soon being transported to UAB for more specialized care. One particular area of concern is major infection, the cause and treatment is unknown at this writing. As you all receive this post, please pray.

Thank you with love and holy hugs, kt