Writing for the Loft
today, along with many others. I hope you will check out the place and get connected with some great blogs (just click the pic). This week’s topic is insecurities. Let’s see . . . how many of mine do I dare publicly expose?
Leah wrote about not enough. I can so identify! A few months back I listed my not enoughs, typed them out even, I admit I stopped on number 27, there are more. And no I am not revealing the list. 🙂
So what am I going to reveal?
That I am 62, weigh 15 pounds more than is optimally healthy for me, I can easily be sucked into a family friendly chic flick and ignore more important matters; which leads me to my point: here of late I have come to fear that I will come to the end of my days (which are fewer than I have already spent) and I will not have lived well for JESUS.
And you might say now wait a minute, Kathie, the topic is insecurities and you are talking about fear.
That’s right. For me all insecurities are rooted in fear.
The fear that I am not acceptable as I am. And you know what that ultimately means? It means I am afraid that I am not fully loved! And you know what else? Even if the whole world loved me that still would not be enough. Because I can only be completely satisfied and fully secure if I moment by moment accept the fact that GOD loves me unconditionally.
(Is this an excuse to live sloppily? ABSOLUTELY NOT! It’s the freedom, the strength, and the courage to keep on getting back on track when we do fail to walk in love!)
So I am working on it, one moment at a time. And we are making progress! 🙂 Some days more than others — it’s a process.