I’m still in John 5. 
Actually, I thought I was in 6, but nope, not yet.

And I’m here with you with verse 38. Yeshua is speaking to some Folks in the Temple Court. He has been conversing with them about John and apparently, some of them just want to argue. People have not changed in 2000 years. So He said this to them:

³⁸ moreover, his word does not stay in you, because you don’t trust the one he sent.  source 

I took note of this and made notes.

I said what a really horrible state of being: The Word of GOD does not stay in you.

To me, that means you hear it but you do not retain it. You do not hold it dear. It is not a treasure to you. Nor is it a guide for your thinking or your doing.
(But it’s deeper. John 1:14 tells us JESUS HIMSELF is THE WORD. If we trust not JESUS and The Father who sent Him, we have not retained THE WORD of GOD within us, nor can we). 

And then I said: I don’t want this to be me!

And it isn’t and it shall not be — why?
Because I have been given the holy gift of trust! The holy gift of trusting JESUS.
I am speechless for these indescribable gifts – the gifts of conviction, repentance, and trust in JESUS The CHRIST.
Oh! may all my family, friends, and strangers receive these gifts!

Amen and amen!

Love, Kathie