I have an assignment for you if you choose to accept it.
I read in Matthew 20 that James and John along with their mother came to JESUS to ask of Him a favor. The favor was that James and John could sit one on His right and the other on His left when He set up His kingdom.
Mark 10:35-45 also gives an account of this happening.
Forgive me if I am wrong but from this, I see the Disciples were oh so human. Yeshua is about to be crucified for the sins of the world, including theirs, and they have missed it. At this time James and John are thinking politics, power, getting out from under Roman rule, they are thinking Yeshua would soon be setting up His Rule, His Kingdom and they wanted in on it. Do you see what I mean?
As you read Matthew 20:20-23, look what Yeshua tells them.
What does He tell them about His Kingdom and greatness in His Kingdom?
Where is John?
Where are the other 10?
Your assignment: What could have happened to John between the Matthew 20 encounter and the John 19 happening? How different was he, do you think?
We were meant for this,